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Wed, 22 May 2013 21:50:22 -0700

zeroambit: i can’t sit on the porch at night for too long without being consumed with fear that...

Wed, 22 May 2013 21:38:31 -0700

i can’t sit on the porch at night for too long without being consumed with fear that some man will come up and try to do something horrible to me. i can’t stop myself from running through endless scenarios and routes of escape, retreat, attack, defense. sizing up every nearby object for use as a weapon in the ceaseless, desperate fight for survival that never comes but always might at any moment.

i can’t stand it. but i can’t stop it. i can’t escape it. it tears at the inside of my head like cornered wolverine while i jump at every sound and my heart races at every fleeting shadow.

a pit into which i am endlessly falling but without even the cold satisfaction of seeing the bottom. no terminus; no reprieve; only fear, deep and abiding.

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Wed, 22 May 2013 20:40:25 -0700

brujacore: nitanahkohe: it’s not a dismissal. i have read her...

Wed, 22 May 2013 20:00:56 -0700

brujacore:

nitanahkohe:

it’s not a dismissal. i have read her books multiple times, and am well versed in her work. there are quite a few scholars who have critiqued Gloria Anzaldúa for her problematic definition and mobilization of indigeneity, including Andrea Smith (there is a quote from Smith’s article somewhere in this month’s archive of my blog, if you wanna dig thru to find it). a quick search on google scholar should find you what you’re looking for.

i appreciate Anzaldúa for the work that she did, and recognize that she has been a foundational inspiration for many powerful women of color, and for that reason deserves love and respect. her writing style is beautiful and she has a strength in her that i have continually tried to fortify in myself. as a woman who is also trying to connect to her indigenous heritage and make sense of her identities and situatedness in and outside the academy, i admire her relentless passion for such endeavors in her own life—it’s not easy.

none of that detracts from the lateral violence in her writings, which essentialize indigenous cultures of the Southwest and periodize them in a static framing of what Anzaldúa imagines Native cultural practices to signify. a lot of what she has written in that regard is inaccurate at best, and is so incredibly self-absorbed it’s hard, as a Native woman, to take seriously at times. i think it’s really short-sighted and selfish to claim indigenous ancestry and demand that others recognize your birthright to what you paint as a fossilized indigenous culture, while not also simultaneously aligning yourself with living indigenous communities. to my mind, as a reconnecting person, you don’t get to be Native and still not give a fuck about other Native people and what they are struggling with. moreover, indigenous cultures are not something that can just be melded into whatever you want (which is what she does)—ancestry does not give you the right to selectively pick and choose bits of a culture to appropriate or edit as you please.

i think both those problems are ultimately tied into a gross hyper-romanticization of mestizaje as the answer to some grand postcolonial borderlands question—theories of third spatiality, hybridity, and mestizaje have been tempting for a lot of postcolonial scholars because they allow for recognition of nuance and intermixing, but i personally don’t think that’s enough of a legitimation for an ideology that leaves a lot to be desired. a lot of people who romanticize third spaces, for example, do so with no recognition of the fact that for those of us that live in third space forms of survival and resistance because we don’t have a choice, it’s a life of hardship and struggle that often means physical and emotional needs go unmet—when the third space is your only option, there’s often not much you can do and it’s not as glamorous and revolutionary as everyone makes it out to be. hybridity to me seems similarly short-sighted—interrelations and intermixing are two different things and do we really need a vamped up melting pot vision in order to make the point that things are complicated and bound up in their relations with one another? getting back to Anzalduúa, i think the romanticization of mestizaje is especially egregious considering the lateral violence perpetrated against Natives previously discussed—Andrea Smith has written a critique of this that is basically arguing that Anzaldúa’s entire formulation of the mestiz@ as the person who travels between worlds and crosses boundaries is pinned on a theoretical imagination of Indian as Romantic & Prehistoric (especially oppressive re: gender & sexuality), that can only be updated and transformed into something liberatory by the mestiz@. that’s a pretty offensive implication to me.

i’m not doing these critiques justice, there’s plenty of scholarship that goes into this at great length. i don’t have the time to do your research for you, but there’s plenty of stuff out there if you make the effort to look for it. Natives don’t owe you an annotated bibliography every time they say something is offensive.

I have never thought of this, and basically took Anzaldua’s word for it because of how unfamiliar I generally am about indigenous communities. I’m glad this came up though, I’m reading Andrea Smith’s critique now.

nuditea: IT IS DIFFICULT TO BE GENTLE WITH YOURSELF WHEN YOU MOST NEED IT BUT YOU DESERVE...

Wed, 22 May 2013 19:46:18 -0700

nuditea:

IT IS DIFFICULT TO BE GENTLE WITH YOURSELF WHEN YOU MOST NEED IT BUT YOU DESERVE TENDERNESS. WHEN BIRDS RUN INTO WINDOWS YOU DON’T SCOFF ABOUT HOW THEY NEVER SAW IT COMING AND ROUGH THEM UP. YOU HOLD THEM CAREFULLY AND CHECK THEIR WINGS AND FEET AND LET THEM DECIDE WHEN THEY ARE READY TO FLY AGAIN

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Wed, 22 May 2013 19:30:32 -0700

"Patriarchy, however and whenever it happened, took women out of the community and put them to slave..."

Wed, 22 May 2013 18:53:31 -0700

“Patriarchy, however and whenever it happened, took women out of the community and put them to slave labour for a particular man who in return kept them alive in order to serve his needs and those of ‘his’ children”

- Politics of Sexuality, Pauline Long (via dei-tea)

If I connect this to this quote, it’s so clear to me how the compassion and care-giving instincts women gain because of our ~~assigned gender role~~ struggle within our gender roles, that could fuel whole communities are taken and used for men themselves, thus turning women, human beings, into these substitutes for loans that were mentioned in the quote I linked to.

(via our-lady-of-misandry)

"...tryina to..."

Wed, 22 May 2013 18:39:00 -0700

No. Rich kid. Stop. You aint from no hood. You aint got no bloc. Nobody gonna be fooled by ya shit.

lord in heaven.

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Wed, 22 May 2013 18:20:27 -0700

kisskiss

Wed, 22 May 2013 17:10:46 -0700

*kisskiss*

"Every morning I sit at the kitchen table over a tall glass of water swallowing pills. (So my hands..."

Wed, 22 May 2013 17:04:02 -0700

“Every morning I sit at the kitchen table over a tall glass of water swallowing pills. (So my hands won’t shake.) (So my heart won’t race.) (So my face won’t thaw.) (So my blood won’t mold.) (So the voices won’t scream.) (So I don’t reach for knives.) (So I keep out of the oven.) (So I eat every morsel.) (So the wine goes bitter.) (So I remember the laundry.) (So I remember to call.) (So I remember the name of each pill.) (So I remember the name of each sickness.) (So I keep my hands inside my hands.) (So the city won’t rattle.) (So I don’t weep on the bus.) (So I don’t wander the guardrail.) (So the flashbacks go quiet.) (So the insomnia sleeps.) (So I don’t jump at car horns.) (So I don’t jump at cat-calls.) (So I don’t jump a bridge.) (So I don’t twitch.) (So I don’t riot.) (So I don’t slit a strange man’s throat.)”

- Jeanann Verlee, Good Girl. (via mirroir)

b8-n-cstr8: trans men who say that cis women who id as lesbians are bound to be pieces of shit...

Wed, 22 May 2013 16:46:30 -0700

b8-n-cstr8:

trans men who say that cis women who id as lesbians are bound to be pieces of shit because of it is on the top of my list up against the wall when the rev comes i can guarantee you that much

like don’t get me wrong i resent cis lesbians just as much as the next trans lesbian… but bitch, that is not your place to be speaking. if you are a trans man who only dates femme women, you got yourself all kinds of fucked up if you think you can jump on lesbians like that.

motherfuckers think they can say violent misogynistic shit like that and get away with it cuz they’re cafab… i srsly could cut this bitch so fast

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Wed, 22 May 2013 11:17:21 -0700

omgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgogmomgomgomgomgomg

"Sex is not as an enemy to be polemically confronted, but an overwhelming relation demanding..."

Wed, 22 May 2013 10:07:13 -0700

“Sex is not as an enemy to be polemically confronted, but an overwhelming relation demanding examination, where the pain and weight of gender are more immediate.”

- “Undoing Sex: Against Sexual Optimism” by C.E. from Lies: A Journal of Materialist Feminism (2012)

(via kaydollahsign)

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Tue, 21 May 2013 22:32:13 -0700

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Tue, 21 May 2013 20:42:15 -0700

pussy-strut: nobody pays me to not hate them

Tue, 21 May 2013 20:38:38 -0700

pussy-strut:

nobody pays me to not hate them

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Tue, 21 May 2013 20:20:37 -0700